Dreamin'

I dream a lot of things. My reveries usually end up with happy thoughts, but reality is a different story. I can't escape from reality other than through my thoughts. I don't talk, i write. I feel if I talked and socialized with people I can't trust, I'll lose myself. I'm tired of all the crap I put up with everyday. I fight with my thoughts, and I am a confused teenager. I wish this phase would just go away. I just want to enjoy my life now, but it's harder for me than anything in the world. Hopefully things will straighten out but it seems impossible. the road is crooked. When I am in college I am almost positive things will get a lot better! In high school, I am surrounded by a bunch of kids who talk back to their parents, do highly daring stuff. Well, that stuff is retarded, and kids screw up their lives just thinking about it. Thoughts lead to actions. I dream to start a little journalism soon. I'm signing up for journalism for my school's newspaper. Im sure it will give me the experience that I need..but will school's even look at me if I graduate from a school I had never wanted to graduate from in the first place? I don't know. All i know is that it's a dream that should not be missed. Going to college...maybe i will open up a little more and fulfill my goals that require speaking in public. I'm not really worried about that at the moment, because pondering it, I realize that I don't even want to speak in public. My reasoning is a little unique for other's taste. College. You can't blame me if i am a little excited for the experience.

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